New Beginnings

Life is so very interesting. We start out full of hopes and dreams until something dashes them down, splitting them into pieces. So, we begin again. We pick ourselves up, brush off, and make new goals (or start over again with old goals), beginning a new. This is life. None of us is perfect. None of us will ever make it through without scars and wounds. It was meant to be this way. In order to achieve perfection, we must embrace our weaknesses and just keep moving forward.
As I strive, yet again, to move forward, I reflect and review my life thus far. I have made so many mistakes in my life. I wanted to have a 'classic' LDS family. I had anything but. I thought if I could just teach my children the things I did not know as a child and young woman, they would embrace what I know to be truth. So, I set out with so much hope and determination to make it happen. Well, it obviously did not happen quite that way. With that came depression instead of hope; sadness instead of happiness; but through it all, we had love! Our family members made so many mistakes. I was too hard on my children. I had a difficult time trusting anyone. My husband became an alcoholic, and withdrew from our family for seven years. This was a very difficult time, but a time of love still, in spite of our surroundings. My children taught me about unconditional love, as they continue to do today. They taught me about forgiveness and moving forward in spite of disappointment. Aren't parents supposed to teach their children? Each one of our sons has turned into very wonderful men. They have their problems also. That is life. But, there is love. Always so much love. For which I am eternally grateful for!
Start again? Yes, I think I can... because of this love. It is the driving force that keeps me going. I am so blessed!